Oh Orgasm Denial. i do not like it at all when Master puts me on this. i know it is for the best when He does, though.
my first experience with Denial was shortly after Master and i started discussing having a Master/slut relationship. He was still out of town and we were several days away from our first meeting. Master put me on Orgasm Denial with specific times of the day to edge myself. In the morning before work (so long as i would not be late), when i arrived home from work, and before bed. Additionally if i were to go to any games i had to masturbate (edging was not required) in the bathroom at the rink prior to the start of the game, and during the 1st and 2nd period intermissions. After the game i was required to edge for every goal our team made and every penalty the opposing team made.
during these first few days i was such a good slut and did not cum at all. Even when i edged myself 45 times in a 24 hour period. Master was so proud of me reaching His "magic number" that my first legal orgasm was achieved with His Mouth on my aching clit.
For now Master has made a schedule for me to follow. During the normal work week i am allowed to orgasm as much as i want/can. He wants me to masturbate before work (time permitting), within one hour of coming home from work, before bed, and any other time i wish. From Friday afternoon through Sunday evening i am on Orgasm Denial. i must edge myself at least twice upon waking up, mid-day, evening, and before bed. Sunday night before bed i must edge myself 5 times and am allowed orgasm after the 5th edge. Master has Rules for my Sunday night orgasm, which are: i must have clothespins or clover clamps on and i must have at least my "normal size" dildo in my pussy. i believe i am allowed to orgasm as much as i would like after that 5th edge but i will check with Master before.
As much as i hate Orgasm Denial, i enjoy how much Master enjoys it and the control it is teaching me. i also appreciate very much how He is allowing me to orgasm during the week so i am not frustrated while at work.
i just finished speaking with Master and we added another rule. Whenever i am not at home and not at work i am to have my remote controlled bullet in my pussy. We did that at the game last night, me having to turn it on whenever anyone was in the penalty box. Tonight it is likely that i will not be at the game but Master has commanded me to wear it while i am out and attempt 5 edges.
i must keep a log of all orgasms (legal or not), edges, and Punishments. There is a link to my spreadsheet on the main page of my blog for those who wish to view it.
Oye vey....i cannot wait until Sunday before bed...
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
A Thanksgiving filled with lots of thank You, Master's
i think this had to have been the best Thanksgiving ever. And not because i was with my family and enjoyed tons of great food. Master and i got to spend a lot of time together and wow....
It started around midmorning, i unlocked my door fairly early and crawled back into bed and fell back asleep while waiting for Master's arrival. i did not hear him come in my apartment, but woke up when he crawled in bed with me and started kissing me. we cuddled a bit, which i absolutely love. Master is Dom and Master, but he makes me feel as if i am the most important thing to Him. i am on orgasm denial so Master edged me, twice. i, however, received Punishment after the second edge due to the fact that Master had originally suggested i suck his cock and i asked if i could stay in his arms. i then proceeded to ask Him to edge me again, which he did. After i was immediately Punished by Master slapping my extremely wet, sensitive, irritated pussy...hard. i lost count of how many times he slapped it. i apologized to Master for being a selfish slut and all was forgiven.
We then parted ways for the afternoon. In the evening Master came back over. i greeted Master by getting on my knees, unzipping his pants, and lavishing all my attention on His cock. After a bit Master commanded me to stop, i did not want to but i did as He said. Master and i talked a great deal about various articles He has sent me as well as many other topics. Master and i have wonderful communication, which is something we both value. i was awaiting 4 Punishments for not edging the required amount of times twice, being presumptuous to Master, and having an illegal orgasm. Master took away one of the Punishments because i suggested to Master that we go together and pick out my public collar together, and He really liked the idea.
Master Punished me by using the cane, paddle, and crop on my ass. i thanked Him for the Punishment and we discussed how we both felt after. i confessed to him that i am starting to enjoy these as a part of regular play and perhaps for Punishment He should use them on a different area other than my ass.
Master allowed me to orgasm after i "made love" to his cock and made Him "see stars". i could not stop thanking Master for allowing me to orgasm. We took a small break from "bedroom activities" but i will skip over those details.
After returning from our break i began worshiping Master's fabulous cock again and he came all over my tits. i cleaned him up with my tongue and mouth. As i am reminiscing about the details of what happened next i am not sure if i have the order of events correctly. i cannot remember which happened first. i asked Master if we could try something new, He said yes. Master wrapped my tits in bondage tape and put clover clamps on my nipples. Master put the clamp chain in my mouth. i love the way the clamps felt, but i was very close to using our rest-word. While my tits were clamped and taped Master took clothes pins and put them on my pussy. i loved it. he used the crop some on my pussy, as well as my tits. Thinking back i wish Master would have taken a picture, i am curious to know what i looked like with my pussy pinned open and my tits bound. the PAIN happened when it was time to remove the clothes pins and clamps. i loved Master using them on me, but the pain when He took them off was intense. However, i still wish to use them more. i loved how after Master removed them he caressed and gave attention to each spot, easing the pain. He also does this after a Punishment is completed. Him doing that helps me. It reinforces that even though i was bad, Master cares about his slut.
Master rewarded me for my good behavior the best way possible....His wonderful cock inside my slutty pussy. This was the first time i had His cock in me and i loved every minute of it. He feels so good in me, fits perfectly, moves perfectly in me. i lost count of how many times He made me cum with His cock deep in my wet, tight pussy. i should say it is His pussy, not mine. He has complete control over it and i wouldn't want it any other way.
Master and i fell asleep shortly there after. He got up early in the morning to cash in on some Black Friday shopping while i slept. When He returned, He made me orgasm a few more times. i wanted His cock but Master denied me it; i was not able to touch it at all. This irritated me, but Master knows what is best for His slut and i had not done anything to deserve it in any way. Master did command me to try putting the HUGE dildo in my pussy. He lubed it up, i got on my knees and was able to get some of it in my pussy. i had to call our rest-word for the first time. i admitted to Him that i hated having to use it, He reassured me that it was the correct thing to do.
Master is going out of town for a few days and we probably will not be able to see each other in private before He leaves. i asked Master if he would mark me before He left. i have my collars as a reminder that i am His, but i wanted marks as well. Master said He was very proud of me for asking and taking the markings. Master used the cane and a paint stick on my tits and gave me some wonderful markings. i did have to call the rest-word after one particular hard blow on my left tit. The blow did leave a fabulous mark which i am now fondly looking at while wearing my private collar, sitting naked as our Rules dictate. Both of my tits are marked, i love the way they look. Master also used the cane on my ass, leaving more fabulous marks and also breaking the cane. i asked Master if He would take some pictures of my marks so i could post them here and as well as on my fetlife profile. i am having trouble getting them onto my computer but as soon as they are i will post them proudly for all to see.
i am back on orgasm denial and now am horny as all hell again after writing this entry. i think it may be time to edge myself again...after all ready taking a break from the blog and edging myself twice.....
Thank You Master for giving me such a great Thanksgiving.
It started around midmorning, i unlocked my door fairly early and crawled back into bed and fell back asleep while waiting for Master's arrival. i did not hear him come in my apartment, but woke up when he crawled in bed with me and started kissing me. we cuddled a bit, which i absolutely love. Master is Dom and Master, but he makes me feel as if i am the most important thing to Him. i am on orgasm denial so Master edged me, twice. i, however, received Punishment after the second edge due to the fact that Master had originally suggested i suck his cock and i asked if i could stay in his arms. i then proceeded to ask Him to edge me again, which he did. After i was immediately Punished by Master slapping my extremely wet, sensitive, irritated pussy...hard. i lost count of how many times he slapped it. i apologized to Master for being a selfish slut and all was forgiven.
We then parted ways for the afternoon. In the evening Master came back over. i greeted Master by getting on my knees, unzipping his pants, and lavishing all my attention on His cock. After a bit Master commanded me to stop, i did not want to but i did as He said. Master and i talked a great deal about various articles He has sent me as well as many other topics. Master and i have wonderful communication, which is something we both value. i was awaiting 4 Punishments for not edging the required amount of times twice, being presumptuous to Master, and having an illegal orgasm. Master took away one of the Punishments because i suggested to Master that we go together and pick out my public collar together, and He really liked the idea.
Master Punished me by using the cane, paddle, and crop on my ass. i thanked Him for the Punishment and we discussed how we both felt after. i confessed to him that i am starting to enjoy these as a part of regular play and perhaps for Punishment He should use them on a different area other than my ass.
Master allowed me to orgasm after i "made love" to his cock and made Him "see stars". i could not stop thanking Master for allowing me to orgasm. We took a small break from "bedroom activities" but i will skip over those details.
After returning from our break i began worshiping Master's fabulous cock again and he came all over my tits. i cleaned him up with my tongue and mouth. As i am reminiscing about the details of what happened next i am not sure if i have the order of events correctly. i cannot remember which happened first. i asked Master if we could try something new, He said yes. Master wrapped my tits in bondage tape and put clover clamps on my nipples. Master put the clamp chain in my mouth. i love the way the clamps felt, but i was very close to using our rest-word. While my tits were clamped and taped Master took clothes pins and put them on my pussy. i loved it. he used the crop some on my pussy, as well as my tits. Thinking back i wish Master would have taken a picture, i am curious to know what i looked like with my pussy pinned open and my tits bound. the PAIN happened when it was time to remove the clothes pins and clamps. i loved Master using them on me, but the pain when He took them off was intense. However, i still wish to use them more. i loved how after Master removed them he caressed and gave attention to each spot, easing the pain. He also does this after a Punishment is completed. Him doing that helps me. It reinforces that even though i was bad, Master cares about his slut.
Master rewarded me for my good behavior the best way possible....His wonderful cock inside my slutty pussy. This was the first time i had His cock in me and i loved every minute of it. He feels so good in me, fits perfectly, moves perfectly in me. i lost count of how many times He made me cum with His cock deep in my wet, tight pussy. i should say it is His pussy, not mine. He has complete control over it and i wouldn't want it any other way.
Master and i fell asleep shortly there after. He got up early in the morning to cash in on some Black Friday shopping while i slept. When He returned, He made me orgasm a few more times. i wanted His cock but Master denied me it; i was not able to touch it at all. This irritated me, but Master knows what is best for His slut and i had not done anything to deserve it in any way. Master did command me to try putting the HUGE dildo in my pussy. He lubed it up, i got on my knees and was able to get some of it in my pussy. i had to call our rest-word for the first time. i admitted to Him that i hated having to use it, He reassured me that it was the correct thing to do.
Master is going out of town for a few days and we probably will not be able to see each other in private before He leaves. i asked Master if he would mark me before He left. i have my collars as a reminder that i am His, but i wanted marks as well. Master said He was very proud of me for asking and taking the markings. Master used the cane and a paint stick on my tits and gave me some wonderful markings. i did have to call the rest-word after one particular hard blow on my left tit. The blow did leave a fabulous mark which i am now fondly looking at while wearing my private collar, sitting naked as our Rules dictate. Both of my tits are marked, i love the way they look. Master also used the cane on my ass, leaving more fabulous marks and also breaking the cane. i asked Master if He would take some pictures of my marks so i could post them here and as well as on my fetlife profile. i am having trouble getting them onto my computer but as soon as they are i will post them proudly for all to see.
i am back on orgasm denial and now am horny as all hell again after writing this entry. i think it may be time to edge myself again...after all ready taking a break from the blog and edging myself twice.....
Thank You Master for giving me such a great Thanksgiving.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
The Start of a Beautiful Dom/sub Relationship
This is my first shot at writing a blog, so please bear with me as i try to figure all of this out....
i have only had Master for about a week now but i already want to do everything i can to please Him and not disappoint Him in anyway. i am new to the Dom/sub world and very curious as to how much i can handle.
Master and i have known of each other for a few months now but only officially met a few weeks ago. We exchanged some emails, mostly clean and innocent until i made a comment about needing to be punished. That is when the Dom/sub conversations started. He was out of town, somewhere in a totally different time zone. We spent several hours on the phone talking about what we both want, have tried, do not like, etc. Emailed links to pictures of things we would like to try and what turns us on. After the first phone conversation Master already had control over me. Now after a few meetings, i want to please Him, make him proud, and be the best slut he has ever had.
i want to go into details of what we have done as of now, but Master gave me instructions that this entry was to be about how our relationship started. i already had one Punishment from Him today for being a selfish slut and have 4 more Punishments coming to me for various things i did/did not do. i do not wish to do anything else that may cause another Punishment tonight. i will ask Master if he would not mind to review this posting and give me some pointers.
i have only had Master for about a week now but i already want to do everything i can to please Him and not disappoint Him in anyway. i am new to the Dom/sub world and very curious as to how much i can handle.
Master and i have known of each other for a few months now but only officially met a few weeks ago. We exchanged some emails, mostly clean and innocent until i made a comment about needing to be punished. That is when the Dom/sub conversations started. He was out of town, somewhere in a totally different time zone. We spent several hours on the phone talking about what we both want, have tried, do not like, etc. Emailed links to pictures of things we would like to try and what turns us on. After the first phone conversation Master already had control over me. Now after a few meetings, i want to please Him, make him proud, and be the best slut he has ever had.
i want to go into details of what we have done as of now, but Master gave me instructions that this entry was to be about how our relationship started. i already had one Punishment from Him today for being a selfish slut and have 4 more Punishments coming to me for various things i did/did not do. i do not wish to do anything else that may cause another Punishment tonight. i will ask Master if he would not mind to review this posting and give me some pointers.
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